i got my first rejection letter in the mail. i should have known it was going to be bad news, because it came in a small envelope. it also brought back memories of college admissions, and how much i wanted to live in southern california. it's funny though, i cannot imagine myself there anymore, while life in the bay area turned out to be the best thing that ever happened. i wonder if history might repeat itself. if my own plans had not gone awry, i wouldn't have become who i am today, or have met those whom i love so dearly now. that "dear ms. wang, unfortunately" letter had changed my entire life, and i'm so thankful that i received it. yet now i'm faced with the same situation, and although i know i may be at the cusp of another great adventure, i'm really scared to accept it. three things that scare me the most are 1) the unknown, 2) failure, and 3) spiders. this right here- waiting for admissions- includes both fear one and two. i'm just glad tha