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my mom left for malaysia a couple days ago. the house is quiet without her. she left around 4pm, and at first, we were all going to go the airport together with my aunt and uncle to drop her off, but she could tell my brother and i weren't comfortable saying goodbye to her. she made up some random excuse for me and him to stay home, and so we hugged her goodbye at our front door instead. when they drove off, i closed the door and laid in her bed. though i feel very childish to post this, i'll admit that i cried a little bit. the year just started, yet i won't be able to see her again until the fall. that night, i checked my email and noticed that mom had sent me something while waiting for her flight in LA. she said it was really hard saying bye to us and didn't want us to see her sad. i miss her. tucson wasn't so bad when she was around, and now that she's gone, i'm really lonely.

to take my mind off things, i started on my new puzzle, ran a few miles, tidied up the house, and looked for some part time jobs. searching for a job would be easier if i had something in mind, except i have no idea what i want to do in my spare time. should i deposit checks? serve coffee and pound cake? help shoppers ring up their purchases? remind patients of their scheduled appointments? seat so-and-so's party of ten? teach kids their square roots? or just channel surf until i look like this:



this morning my brother and i made some brunch. it was actually pretty fun. he'll be keeping me company until school starts, which is mid next week. i'm kind of jealous that he gets to go back to school. i honestly think i have some kind of postcollege depression, or just feel so far away from the people i love. i know i have family next door, but josh moved to ohio this morning, and jiow has school everyday.

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Sandy said…
:(, this entry made me sad. i'm glad you're keeping yourself busy though, i agree that that's the best way to handle it ^_^ it made me feel so lazy, because i neveerrr run, and if i were to get on a treadmill, i'd be terribly terribly out of shape.. haha.

hmm.. i think depositing checks sounds easiest, but maybe that'd get boring. customer service jobs are sooo tiring though.. and sometimes people are mean. teaching's tiring.. haha don't do it! =p hmm... i can see your dilemma.. >_< well either way, i'm glad you won't have to work lots of hours, so regardless of what you do, it won't be too bad! ^_^

hahaha and the video was funny, i still wasn't sure what it was about until the last words showed up, haha. ^_^
January 12, 2008 at 11:32 AM
ruth said…
having served coffee and rung up shoppers, i think coffee is more fun... maybe just 'cuz it smells good. (and because you can make yourself drinks when no one's there)

i don't know if you need health insurance, but i've heard that starbucks has good health insurance and other benefits if you work 20 hrs / week.
January 15, 2008 at 3:25 PM
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